I've been saying this a lot lately, but this is probably my favorite shoot I've done so far. To me the bright shining yellow perfectly expresses how I feel about the start of spring, and hopefully the start of my success with new goals I am setting for myself.
Opening up my followers (many of who are strangers, but some who I know and love outside of social media) can be scary, but is something that I think is really important. And honestly, I didn't even know I was going to write this post until I sat down to do it.
As much as I love showing off the happy/aesthetic/ideal moments, everyone knows there's more to life. I hope that by sharing my experiences I can help others to know they aren't alone in their struggles.
For as long as I can remember, I've been really affected by the seasons. I've always worked really hard, whether that means in school, my career, or at my hobbies, but finding the motivation to enjoy those things is really difficult for me in the winter. Having less daylight leaves me feeling overwhelmed, as if I can't get everything done in time. Even though I stick to the same schedule all year round, there is something about sunset that makes me feel like the day is over before really is.
In order to combat my lack of motivation, I overflow my schedule with tasks, and when I'm not able to get them all done I fuel my cycle of stress.
I tend to count down the days until we "spring forward" and I can cherish the few extra hours of sun. I push off things I want to accomplish until the weather gets better, even if a rainy day wouldn't have an effect on the outcome.
Luckily spring has arrived in Seattle, so I've been feeling much more inspired in recent weeks. For example, I treated myself to a haircut I absolutely love. I did a few photoshoots and collabs I'm really excited about. I've been taking my pup on longer walks. I even convinced myself to start working out again.
But at the same time, I've realized that it's not fair to myself or those around me that I've been living season-to-season. I know that sheer force of will isn't enough to fix seasonal depression (and it's naive to address mental health that way) but I'm hoping that by setting these few goals for myself over the next year that I can at least make small changes for the better.
Over the next year, I am going to -
It's really important to me that I stick with it, and hopefully to create habits that will help me address my seasonal depression rather than become victim to it. If you have any tips for how you've stayed inspired year-round, don't hesitate to reach out!
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